January 18. Eric Protzman. Eric knew God—in a way, loved his family, and thought life would be fair. How do you think that worked out?
Life is unfair; God can turn your pain into his purpose.
After Eric watched his grandfather suffer eight long years of the degradation of dementia, Eric told God, “I’m out.”
His grandfather, Dr. Weston, had been a surgeon who had restored—to many other people—lives of dignity. But for the doctor, there was no dignity. Dementia had scraped away his dignity. Eric’s grandfather was humiliated. And Eric resented God for his grandfather’s loss.
For Eric, it was easy to shut faith out, and it was easy to lock his heart “stone cold.” He simply narrowed his focus to Christians like TV evangelists—ones who manipulated and preyed upon people. There. That proved it: religion was a scam.
After his grandfather’s death, Eric and Nancy, his fiancée, moved ahead with wedding plans. But things didn’t really improve.
They asked Eric’s grandmother to sing for the wedding ceremony, but when the time came, she was too ill. And while Eric and Nancy honeymooned in Europe, his grandmother died.
When they got home, the newlyweds visited Nancy’s parents, Bob and Bonnie, and grief overcame Eric. He fled to their basement, sobbing.
After some time, Bob came downstairs to offer comfort.
“I do not believe in your God, and I will never believe in your God,” Eric said.
“Eric, the good news is—this is not up to you.” Bob’s voice was tender.
Eric knew he had been disrespectful, but all he could see was his own anger.
For Bob, it should have been a “get out of my house moment,” but Bob responded with grace.
No berating. No lecture. Just come-on-upstairs-when-you’re-ready.
Over the years, Eric earned more opportunities to get a “finger-wagging” from his father-in-law, but it never came. Not once.
Every day, Bob and Bonnie prayed for Eric’s return to faith. Bob never confronted, lectured, or pushed the issue. He left it to Jesus to convince Eric God was real, and Bob stuck to the part of the job that was his—loving Eric as Jesus did.
Eric put Christians down. But never Bob and Bonnie. Eric didn’t believe what they believed, but they were too respectful to raise his ire.
As months turned into years, Eric did life. Bought a home. Had children. Established a successful career.
Nancy’s faith grew, too. She demonstrated the grit, infinite justice, and grace of Jesus.
Of course, Eric noticed, but he kept his heart on lockdown. When Nancy got up, dressed the children, and took them to church, he respected her choice. He just didn’t join her.
But Bob, Bonnie, and Nancy kept praying—for fifteen years. Eric climbed the success ladder with no desire to return to faith. But stirrings deep inside him started chipping away at his stony heart. They nourished him. Drew him. Called to him.
One day, as he sat at the desk where he worked for a Fortune 500 company, he heard the Holy Spirit so clearly it was practically audible. “Welcome back,” God said. “You didn’t get a glove on Me. I’m much stronger than you think I am.”
Time stopped.
“You will work for me for the rest of your life,” the Voice added. The words were spoken with such kindness—gentle and matter-of-factly—so that Eric experienced them as a gift, not a command, warning, or threat. Eric welcomed the message. It felt completely true.
That was in 1991. Eric, now sixty-five, has enjoyed twenty-eight years of working for God. “It’s our job to open eyes and ears,” Eric said. “You don’t do that by prying them open. You whisper.” You love. Listen. Treat others with dignity. The same way Bob—and Jesus—treated Eric.
“The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying, ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness’” (Jeremiah 31:3 NIV).
What wound has challenged your faith? Where do you sense God drawing you out of pain and into faith? Life is unfair; God can turn your pain into his purpose.
Based on an interview with Eric Protzman, 2019.